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Margo Lanagan, Pie & Exhaustion

Welcome to week three. This is the time when exhaustion starts to creep into the edges of things. When reading one more story feels like a nigh insurmountable hurdle. When writing another story feels like torture. (Hey–when does it not, right?)

I’ve noticed a couple of things this week. Class starts at nine AM, Monday through Friday. In the first week we were all rushing to get there at 8:59.59. Then last week we were sliding into our seats with a few seconds to spare. This morning, most of us were in the classroom five, even ten minutes before the stroke of learning. (That’s what she said.)

Another thing is that I find myself seeking solitude more often, and with greater fervency. I expect this theme to continue, to some degree or another. Today, for example, I spent most of the afternoon alone, in the basement. And, since I had such a pleasant few hours down there, I will tell you what I did.

  • Critiqued a story.
  • Stood up and stretched.
  • Critiqued another story.
  • Made myself a cup of tea and grabbed a piece of awesome yummy banana bread.
  • Watched videos of So You Think You Can Dance (Do not resist the clickage!)
  • ‘Finished’ my story for Friday

Good times were had by all. But the intense socialization that ClarionWest can cultivate does get wearing. Even sitting amongst half a dozen quiet writers in the common room, each focused on their own task, takes something out of you. And since the common room was practically deserted when I emerged for dinner, I must assume I’m not the only person here dealing with this particular stressor.

In other news: Pie!

And, furthermore: Margo Lanagan!

We got an interesting mini-lecture from Margo this morning concerning titles. Apparently, we somewhat suck at titles. Speaking for myself, I already knew that. I mean, Phibs, Lies & Whiskey’ was probably my best. Title. Evar. And that was produced a while ago. Like…years, or summat.

She said that a title should sum up the essence of a story, without giving away the plot, a feat at which Debbie Does Dallas fails miserably. Some pointers she gave for choosing a title:

  • Refer to reference materials used. Her story ‘Eyelids of the Dawn’ refers to the description of the Leviathan in the ultimate reference book–the Bible.
  • Refer to the story itself. ‘A Fine Magic’ came directly from the character in said story, when describing his work.
  • Use the setting to inform the title. ’Under Hell Over Heaven’ is a story Margo wrote about, you guessed it, Heaven and Hell.
  • Use the action to inform the title. In ‘Singing My Sister Down’ the main character does exactly that. But the actions are so divorced from the world we know, and so intriguing, that even thought this sums up the story, it doesn’t give anything away.

Of course, some stories come with a title attached to them, already. Struck By Chocolate, my attempt at a romance novel, came to me title first, and then the plot rushed in to fill out the space. And I’ve picked up a couple of titles here to stories I will likely never write, but I like the sound of it. Like ‘A Bucket Full of Medical Care’. Sounds awesome, if I could figure out what the hell it means.

 
 

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On Delayed Gratification…

Does getting most of my reading material from the library make me a bad reader? Am I not supporting the authors I love if I pick up a used copy of their book? It’s an accusation that has been lobbed at readers lately, and if you’re interested in hearing more about what I believe is a partially valid but also partially insulting argument, you can go here. That is not what this post is about, but it’s tenuously related, and made me think of that post.

So there you go.

I’ve always been a fan of delayed gratification. I think one of the brilliant things about life is the sense of anticipation we can build for ourselves, which makes the resulting payoff that much sweeter. It’s a comparison thing, I think. We have times of famine and times of plenty, and without the famine, the plenty wouldn’t be as nice. Like a man constantly surrounded by riches- what does he have to compare it to?

You know, this is getting a little deeper than I had anticipated. Initially I was just going to talk about the book I have on hold at the library, and some other things, but I realize what I’m really talking about is more fundamental- appreciation.

I have long believed that in order to fully appreciate the beauty in life we have to experience, or at least be aware of, the pain. What is sanity without madness? What is sweetness without a bitter tang?

Not much, I say. When our hearts and our tongues get all the good stuff, without any of the bad, we become inoculated, in a sense, to joy. And what a shame. Luckily, life generally doesn’t work like that. We are constantly thrown challenges, just by virtue of being alive. Often, the things we are forced to face are unlike anything we’ve ever seen before. We may reach out for guidance, or reach inside for comfort, but either way, we have to deal. Or not. The basic choice between life and death.

Hmm…I’ve gone from delayed gratification to life and death. I do believe I’m off the point here.

What started me on this train of thought: I have a book I am very excited to read, on hold at the library. It has been available for me to pick up for almost a week, and yet, I have delayed. I have let the reality of that book being within my grasp, and yet out of it, boil away for days. It is true that I have many other books on my to-be read bookshelf (and I added yet another one today after a quick trip to a different library), but that is only a small part of my reason for leaving the book in the library hold shelf.

I want to anticipate it.

This feeling of anticipation is something we should strive for in our stories, as well. That sweet, aching moment, when we are left temporarily unsure about the direction the character is going to choose. Will she run away? Will she kill the bad guy? Will she join forces with him and become the penultimate evil sorceress, intent on destroying Fairyland?

Eh…or something like that.

Breeding the right amount of anticipation requires walking a fine and shaky line. One I will readily admit I have not mastered yet. In fact, it was only recently that I became consciously aware of the NEED for anticipation, as such. (Thanks again Jim Butcher, whose books I ought to read soon.) But it makes perfect sense. A little bit of stomach grip, for the readers, can go such a long way.

Now, for everyone who might get up in arms about me putting off picking up this book, because others will be wanting to read it I say this- I have waited over a month for this book to become available, and when it is finally in my sweaty grasp, I will devour it as quickly as I might a handful salted caramels. After that, it shall go right back to the library, to grace some other reader’s embrace. So, quick turnaround.

Now, unfortunately, my want for waiting may have bitten me right in the ass this time around. I had forgotten that the above mentioned library is closed on Fridays, and too far away for me to drive to on any day I am not working. My hold expires on Monday. Boo…my only hope is that the library staff will be slow to pull expired holds Monday, and I might sneak in right when they open (conveniently on my lunch break) and spirit away with my new reading material.

Wish me luck.

 
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Posted by on March 13, 2010 in reading, Uncategorized

 

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The importance of honesty

Yesterday, around eleven am, I submitted an 1,8oo word short story to Ergo Fiction.

It was short. It was brutal. It was dark. It was, truly, unlike anything I am working on or have worked on for many a moon. But it was also eerily similar to things I have written in the past and, especially, things I have enjoyed reading in the past.

It was a weird couple of days for me, while I was writing it. Over the past couple of years I have been moving farther and farther away from horror, and more into the sci-fi and fantasy genres. I am totally okay with that, personally. It’s hard, living in that world with those characters for anything more than a short, concentrated amount of time. I get jump. I get jittery. I get julep-ed.

Okay, maybe not julep-ed, but it does make me want to drink more.

So I focus my energy on happier things. Stories with a horror element that I wouldn’t classify as horror. Because, even in the happiest story, I gotta have me some wicked darkness. Cause that’s what I like.

Back to the short story. After having been away from the genre for a while, it was a bittersweet visit. I know I could write this stuff, and I know that it would have some serious consequences on my mental state. As I told a friend of mine, while talking about this– I know I could indulge in this kind of fiction very easily. But it would BE an indulgence, and it would be too easy to lose myself.

Now, I like myself quite a bit. And the me that wants to surround herself with all manner of beasties, I don’t like so much. It’s good, I think, to strike a balance between the light and the dark. I want my heroes to triumph, and the guys to get those hot chicks they’ve fallen in love with. I want to see things come out well in the end, even if my characters have to lose something important in the meantime.

I don’t want my villains wiping the floor with my hero’s detached scalp. End of story.

Writing this short story helped to make all of that very clear to me.It was my Snicker’s bar indulgence. Something familiar and rich but ultimately unsatisfying and a bit nauseating.

So here’s to hope, and lights at the ends of tunnels. Here’s to staying honest to yourself, enough that you can recognize your weaknesses. Here is, most importantly, to life, lived the way you want to live it.

 
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Posted by on February 21, 2010 in discovery

 

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The Good Stuff

This weekend, on Saturday to be precise, I participated in Write Your @ss Off Day, a day dedicated to working on the story. This couldn’t have come at a better time, since I decided, on Friday, to start over.

From the beginning. Pretty much.

You see, I have a problem with creating boring main characters with an interesting supporting cast. Instead of plugging through with my lackluster MC (sorry Amber) I put on the breaks and threw the kids out of the damn car. No warnings, no threats.

Not only did I replace my main character, though, I replaced her best friend, and the concept of my…erm…third person, whose details I will not divulge here. And all this required some major thought processing.

And, as it turns out, a set of Moleskines. Red ones. Yum.

Thusly, I spent Saturday morning brainstorming in my pretty new book, and Saturday afternoon/evening writing my pretty new book. I’m so happy I’ve made the change. It was a difficult decision to make, though. I didn’t want to give up on Book A, just to chase some shiny rabbit down it’s hole, for no other reason than it being shiny. That kind of thing might fly for a short story, but for a novel? I can’t afford to waste the time.

So I had to ask myself a few questions. Why would I change so many key elements? What would this accomplish? Would this really make it better, or is this just another form of procrastination? Most importantly, though, I asked myself: Will this make me happy? Will NOT doing this make me unhappy? The answer to both of those was a resounding YES. I was already bored with poor, defunct Amber, and enthralled with Hester, she of new MC fame. I wanted to hang out with her. I was making excuses for her to be in scenes where she didn’t really belong. I thought about her all the time. I sent her a note: Will you go to prom with me, mark yes/no…and she sent me back a wicked paper airplane that said Let’s Do This!

So here we are.

And having the permission/expectancy of WY@O Day helped kick me in the…well, you know where, to get this writing moving!

Now, as the weekend draws to a close, I find myself nearing 7,000 words of actual novel content, not counting notes at all. And I keep going back, because I know where I’m going with this story, and I want to see it get there because Efran is going to be so cool!

Oh, shoot. Did I say that out loud?

 
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Posted by on February 7, 2010 in writing

 

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VIPs and writer’s block

I got some VIP work done this weekend.

You know, schmoozing with the bigwigs, rubbing elbows with women in dark sunglasses and men with stylish facial hair. Drinking cosmos. Punching paparazzi.

Heh…

So, maybe that was just a nightmare I had Saturday night after watching Aliens and eating too much bacon.

No, this Sunday was dedicated to Very Important Planning. I am about ten percent through my book, without a detailed outline (I’ve come to the realization that I work better without one [more on that another day]), without character bios or really strong plot points set up. So I sat down with my character sheets from Holly Lisle, starting with my FMC (Female Main Character). Didn’t learn too much I didn’t already know, so I moved on to her best friend, MSC (Male Secondary Character). I got a few tidbits, and solidified his voice and motives, which is great. Then I moved on to my MMC/Antagonist.

Wow. I had no idea.

So I initially intended this guy to be evil, summoned up by a pathetic, lovelorn tertiary character. Through revealing more about his past, and his inner workings, I discovered that my approach with him was way off. He’s not evil; he’s lonely and desperately misguided. And my tertiary idiot character? Gone. Not necessary. Which brings me to my second breakthrough- my true antagonist. Someone I had shunted to the back like so many rotten potatoes, making the house stink but ultimately unimportant.

My characters grew and stretched and surprised me, and my plot did the same. It was great!

When I start in on a story I plunge in with a few basic ideas on characters and concepts, and I feel around for a while. I think this helps me get to know my characters and world a bit, to get a sense for this place I’m building. But it doesn’t last. Pretty soon I have to be more analytical about things, and explore them in a more logical manner. That’s when I start to find the really good stuff. My subconscious has been working on it the entire time, just waiting for me to come along and unlock the doors.

This pausing and analyzing process is something I will do multiple times throughout the writing of the story, and I always come away feeling fresh, focused, and more organized, clearing away potential roadblocks for the next few days or weeks.

Which is not to say that I don’t get curveballs from my subconscious while I’m busy taking a shower. But it is immensely gratifying knowing that I can kick start that discovery process, pretty much at will.

Basically, it’s my inoculation against writer’s block.

 
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Posted by on February 1, 2010 in writing

 

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